Update

Seems I've lost the thrill of blogging recently... Anyway, to the fans of my blog, I will try my utmost best to keep it as updated as possible. Prayerfully, my entries will be able to minister to those out there. i am looking for interesting stuff to post it here... well... let's see.

As I mention in my previous entry, being with my members really rejuvenates strength and give a greater punch to keep the momentum going. Just came back from cell group. see God's goodness in the things He has done in this group. The improved relationships and the growing desire for Him has made the group much livelier. Felt that there is much more I can give to see greater growth.

Gonna be the end of the month soon... Time flies. A quarter of the year has gone by.

Blues

Been kind of experiencing blues lately.. feeling kinda uneasy about somethings which I would not mention. Probably it's the transition that is tiring me out and causing me to rediscover things that I would rather not face. I've been having dreams actively for the past three weeks... it's driving me nuts cos I need rest... and proper ones. Yep.. I am a dreamer but not one who wish to be disturbed in her sleep practically every night. Since I am almost settled down in my work place, this bothersome syndrome should go off soon assuming that it is a by-product of growing into a new phrase of life.

Lady.....
Growing manifestations of the little child.. out of the facade of independence... learning to adapt to her natural habitat of interdepencency with the species of her kind. Sometimes she would wonder if she has lost the power over herself and given over to her natural appetite. Fearless abandon of herself to the greater Him. Surrender and not withdrawal. Her cries are made known to Him. Her desires are crafted to fit into His. Signs of discomfort. Tears of unspoken lonliness.

Well.... it's not meant to be so blue.. haha. Bright cheery yellow to continue on... I have a good time with my cell members the last two days... Being with them rejuvenates strength and passion. They reminds myself of the greater plan He has for me in the mist of wriggling through the unpleasant procedures of His shaping. That's the main thing that makes my week so far.

Getting used to the working environment.. that makes navigation in the office much easier for me. Things are picking up its pace, though still not very fast but it gives ample time to learn and to ask as many questions as I can.

Laying down Issac

Laying down Issac... that's what I've decided to do! The Lord spoke to me about my Issac. Well.. it's been a struggle to place him on the alter but somehow since last week when the Lord tugged at my heart that particular area of my life, I've began to find strength to surrender. Hmm.. Pastor Foo mention that when we lay down one Issac, there will be many Issacs God will bring into our lives. I was ministered by that cos God was just pointing His finger at that Issac. I've got to let go cos that thing or person belongs to God.

Been enjoying work.. just that pace is a bit slow at this moment for the start. Adjusting to the new lifestyle and changes... Haha.. I am beginning to talk in the office... out of my hole of deprivation!!!! Getting more comfortable with the guys in the office and really thank God for each one of them... They have really been taking good care of me on the accord that I am the youngest and new to the company. I've started tagging along with Daniel for appointments this week. He's been teaching me a lot of things and it's pretty fun working together with him. Was just asking him if I could do something more exciting next week... Well, it's great having to be able to look forward to work! It's a blessing from the Lord. I've got to realise and fulfil God's mission for me in this job. Shujun and myself was just saying that she's gonna impact the doctors and I will do likewise with the designers!

Back

Breaking the silence.... I am back. It's a good thing that I really don't have much time to blog these days cos it shows that I am not bored! Some people will be happy to hear this as they won't be constantly bugged by phone calls from me.. haha...

Really thank God for work. This week is more of like an orientation... lotsa things to familarize myself with and to read up. Above all, still adapting to new relationships in the office. God is really faithful. I couldn't believe that all the job specification that I laid before Him has been answered. hmmm.... my silent whispers to Him and my desires... He know it all. For some of you who will know my struggle ever since after my JC, probably you could understand the extent of my gratitude to the Lord. It really takes God to bring us through a season of His moulding to develop character and to deepen our walk with Him. It's been a long time I felt so sure of where I am. You just know it when you hit the right place the right time and the right passion with the Lord. Like I mention earlier on... I am entering into a new season... A chapter has closed and the Lord is starting a new one now... He is probabaly working on another knot in my life.. haha

Well... I like wat I am doing now... Realise that I have a strong interest in art and design... It's a place where I can truly develop my creative wing. People there are nice chaps just that designers can be quite weird at time... and there are sooooo many design books to read! The only person that is more normal is Daniel whom I am working together with... Talking about designers, they are just different from the less right-brain pp around... They are a perculiar lot who perpetually lost their sense of direction besides having lost in their own world often and have a lesser interest in keeping time. They can be quite boring people at times... Maybe this explains why most of them either marry late or dun get married at all.. haha...That is probably wat makes them stand out! Maybe someday I will marry one! but... I can't stand bordeom... -_-

Into a new realm!

Stepping into a new realm of challenge! Work was good. I had lots of reading to do the past two days in the office... stuffs like company's profile, studio operation processes and notes on newsletters etc... but I am happy about it. I am doing something that I am passionate about. Felt such a surge of energy and passion in what I am doing. It's a very challenging environment to work in.

The first day of work was a bit intimidating for me as I am new to my working environment. I have to watch and observe the company culture and adapt to it. They are all a bunch of young people in the late twenties to thirties... so obviously I am the youngest. Things are getting better today... felt less tense up.

Just some thoughts about designers... seems that designers are fond of losing track of time. They have a tendency to be late! Well... most of my designer friends are like that.. The past two days, being new to the company and trying to play hard at keeping rules, I arrived at my work place punctually as I was told. In fact, both days I was earlier than required. Something not so usual. But guess wat? I was lock out of office cos the designers were all late, including my manager. They are not like five or ten min late that kind of thing but half an hour or more!!! Of course, they will at least be one who will arrive a bit earlier than the others. We'll see how things go.... but they do work till very late... another thing about them is that they often seem to be in a world of their own.... to add on, they have their perculiar style. Their hairstyle could distinctively tell you their profession... That's just my thoughts k... though it does carry some truth in it..

Change

That was the topic of today's sermon. Ps Suzanne preached on change. Going through changes... some things will not be the same anymore.. learning to grasp with the art of adulthood. Really felt very assured by the Lord with regards to the job that I am starting this coming Monday. It's like you know it and that's it. I'm excited and looking forward to it.

Changes does bring fear as you don't know wat the end product of the process will be exactly. It takes faith to step out and explore the possibilities. Wat would it be three to five years down the road? I see the changes taking place determining wat things will be the next few years of my life. Wat would relationships be like then? Friendships? Calling of God? Life partner? It's kind of adventurous.. =)

Thoughts!

Blogging has gradually become my favourite past time since I started "work" last week. The usual thing today is that I am still bored. The only difference today as compared to the rest of the days is that there is pracitically NO WORK TO DO today. At least I get to work for an hour yesterday. I wonder if anyone can feel my frustration out there. Well, I made use of my time to talk to my members on the phone, check email and entertain Sham who was just as bored as me. I wonder how he has been surviving all these while in the office ALONE!

Just wondering how work will be like at my new work place next week. I will be working very near Shujun... hee.. lunchie partner in time to come. When I told Adrian on Tuesday how glad I was to get the job, his first reaction was..well... almost 40% of my joy attributes to the fact that I am near the shopping paradise in Singapore. Well.. that is just a minor percentage though... The fact of the matter is that God answers my prayer to wat I am looking for as a career. I love window shopping.. that's a good way to de-stres myself. I have not really been shopping since Chinese New Year cos I am moving into the economical stream more and more.. haha...so window shop would be fine.. Gonna spend my first pay meaningfully to bless those dear to my heart...yep especially my parents. Eh... I hear someone snoring.. Sham is sleeping!!! O man!!!

Just can't wait for Monday to start work..

By the way, Indonesia was hit by a major earthquake on Monday. It was Monday night while I was napping before I resume my marathon to finish my project presentation that the Lord impressed upon my heart that I need to pray. Following that, the next day, news of the quake came about. Similar urges from the Lord has happen during major world events like the 911 incident where I had dreams and felt that I need to pray after that. This time I felt it was an alert from the Lord to arise to my calling to pray.

Lord, I want to be found among those who have been found faithful to pray and to speak to the nations!

"I searched for a man among them who would build up the wall and stand in the gap before Me for the land, so that I would not destroy it; but I found no one." Ezekiel 22:30