A fond farewell to kaijun and ben last sun before they enter into their phrase of manhood.

It's simply craziness and losing of urself! Well... guys, you know what I mean. We did have a good time at the gaming cafe.

Failed advertising campaign for pepsi. Good try!

Welcome

Welcome to this world, Ryan! Let me introduce... this is my baby cousin. He's just begin his journey of new life three weeks back and this was taken upon his arrival. Peacefully asleep.

Sometimes a glance at newborns simply wow us at how marvellous is the work of God's hand. Like what the psalmist says, the Lord forms us while we are in our mother's womb. we are not evolved from some ape and there we are on earth. Each part of us is carefully kneaded by the Lord, every detail of us is given full attention with love.

Up and going

Almost did something irrational three weeks back. Thank God for His grace and the people He sent along the way to be there with me. Losing the momentum to move on, disappointed and hopeless. Can you imagine how a soldier feel when he has to face consistent defeats in the battle field and the aftermath of each battle lies wounded soldiers, rubble....? To every soldier, victory is the focal point. The moment you are on field, there is only one goal - to win the war.

The Lord reminded me a vision He gave me two years back. It was a chaotic scene of an aftermath of a war. Seemingly, it's been a feriousious one. Back then, I was probably puzzled what was the Lord implying. However, there is light to what He is wanting to tell us. The victory is sure. The Lord will restored back the army who will fight courageously. I felt the awakening of the Lord to put on my prayer gear. Now is the time!

I will be having another partner in the battlefield soon. He is a sure fighter. Really thank God for him and he is one of those who really lends a listening ear when I need to let out.

Gonna move on as a team and stop allowing the devil to molest us spiritually. The army of God will prevail!

Sentosa

Our leaders outing at Sentosa... The photos came a bit late cos I din have time to upload them to my computer. These are just a showcase of a few of those capturing moments of that day. The rest of it will be posted on my imagestation soon.

Really been busy and stressed up lately with work. It a whole world of difference between working and studying. Thank God that Jess, my boss, is not as demanding as any other bosses. At least she still gives me grace and allow time for me to pick up the ropes. Well, somehow... you still ave to show something on your report card. I believe if the Lord has open a door to this job, He will lead me through.



@ Siloso Beach... can you spot us?

Beach volleyball under the HOT sun.

Group photo

shuch and shushu

A glimpse of His promises to remind us that He is faithful.....

A New Chapter

All things that begin must ultimately meet its end. A new chapter emerges with new vision, new hope and fresh encounters. Paul says in Philippians " Forgetting wat lies behind, pressing in towards the upward call of God". The shaking engineered by the Lord has awaken me to my calling. What are the challenges leading us to? God works all things for the good of those who love Him. We have to truly embrace the perfect love and grace of God to be able to see that.

High time we move as a team to conquer the promise land. It's time to lay aside personal agendas to take on the high calling. Time to resolve disappointments and differences to be united with one spirit.

We will make it through!

Release...

WOSH!!!! I'm been pretty stress up recently with work... Enjoying my stuffs and it's kind of challenging. A total change of lifestyle and environment. I'm learning to adapt in the adult world to understand their thinking and to work with them. The most demanding part would probably be this rather than my job scope. Things are just different! Adults aint nice to play with when it comes to work.

The Lord has been doing some things in my little closet recently. Thank God that He is always mindful of us even when we seemingly have failed in our own eyes. I've dare to be transparent with Him regarding some issues and open up to people to talk about it. Finally, I felt that my cry is heard. Someone has paid precise attention after so long. I made myself very clear once and for all. I felt understood for once. I'm not given something that I've not asked for and being continually deprived of what I really need. The process of opening up hurts. It's like revisiting your unhealed wound and realise how much pain it can still bring you after so long. Well, I can be very open when people do give me time to express. Some deeper issues need time to be put in words right???

Deeper issues in life evolved mostly with people. Not doing anything is often doing something unproductive to a relationship. I'm not non-chalent about things but when it comes to this area, I'm probably more cautious than any other stuffs. If I have taken a first step without a recipocrated response from the other party, I'll probably just wait. For all I know, if I dun feel safe to to take another step further, I would never do so. So the question comes to me... Am I having a non-verbal expectation on the person? The Lord has to help me to deal with my fear and pride. Things still has to be confronted somehow.

Kaijun's birthday

This is a memorial photo of Tan Kaijun's 22nd birthday! While pacing to and fro for a good place to eat that day, we chance upon Ren Thai!!! Food there was superb and everyone enjoyed it.

The oldies in the youth ministry!!! haha

@ Ren thai... Deeze, Chowz and wosh

stepping alone

Finally, I brace up my courage to confront lonliness, a seemingly triumphant enemy in my life for a while. Really thank God for speaking the past two weeks. Lonliness is the place where we can be left to be with God undistracted by things around us and to be intimate with Him. God's not on holiday afterall. In fact, He never take breaks from our lives. What a comfort to know that! However, the buzzling activities of life has robbed our abililty to appreciate stillness or waiting as a way of gaining strength. Tranquility is not longer a desired state of life to many. How the Lord has brought me to this place once again to enjoy a 'walk' with Him.

Update

Seems I've lost the thrill of blogging recently... Anyway, to the fans of my blog, I will try my utmost best to keep it as updated as possible. Prayerfully, my entries will be able to minister to those out there. i am looking for interesting stuff to post it here... well... let's see.

As I mention in my previous entry, being with my members really rejuvenates strength and give a greater punch to keep the momentum going. Just came back from cell group. see God's goodness in the things He has done in this group. The improved relationships and the growing desire for Him has made the group much livelier. Felt that there is much more I can give to see greater growth.

Gonna be the end of the month soon... Time flies. A quarter of the year has gone by.

Blues

Been kind of experiencing blues lately.. feeling kinda uneasy about somethings which I would not mention. Probably it's the transition that is tiring me out and causing me to rediscover things that I would rather not face. I've been having dreams actively for the past three weeks... it's driving me nuts cos I need rest... and proper ones. Yep.. I am a dreamer but not one who wish to be disturbed in her sleep practically every night. Since I am almost settled down in my work place, this bothersome syndrome should go off soon assuming that it is a by-product of growing into a new phrase of life.

Lady.....
Growing manifestations of the little child.. out of the facade of independence... learning to adapt to her natural habitat of interdepencency with the species of her kind. Sometimes she would wonder if she has lost the power over herself and given over to her natural appetite. Fearless abandon of herself to the greater Him. Surrender and not withdrawal. Her cries are made known to Him. Her desires are crafted to fit into His. Signs of discomfort. Tears of unspoken lonliness.

Well.... it's not meant to be so blue.. haha. Bright cheery yellow to continue on... I have a good time with my cell members the last two days... Being with them rejuvenates strength and passion. They reminds myself of the greater plan He has for me in the mist of wriggling through the unpleasant procedures of His shaping. That's the main thing that makes my week so far.

Getting used to the working environment.. that makes navigation in the office much easier for me. Things are picking up its pace, though still not very fast but it gives ample time to learn and to ask as many questions as I can.

Laying down Issac

Laying down Issac... that's what I've decided to do! The Lord spoke to me about my Issac. Well.. it's been a struggle to place him on the alter but somehow since last week when the Lord tugged at my heart that particular area of my life, I've began to find strength to surrender. Hmm.. Pastor Foo mention that when we lay down one Issac, there will be many Issacs God will bring into our lives. I was ministered by that cos God was just pointing His finger at that Issac. I've got to let go cos that thing or person belongs to God.

Been enjoying work.. just that pace is a bit slow at this moment for the start. Adjusting to the new lifestyle and changes... Haha.. I am beginning to talk in the office... out of my hole of deprivation!!!! Getting more comfortable with the guys in the office and really thank God for each one of them... They have really been taking good care of me on the accord that I am the youngest and new to the company. I've started tagging along with Daniel for appointments this week. He's been teaching me a lot of things and it's pretty fun working together with him. Was just asking him if I could do something more exciting next week... Well, it's great having to be able to look forward to work! It's a blessing from the Lord. I've got to realise and fulfil God's mission for me in this job. Shujun and myself was just saying that she's gonna impact the doctors and I will do likewise with the designers!

Back

Breaking the silence.... I am back. It's a good thing that I really don't have much time to blog these days cos it shows that I am not bored! Some people will be happy to hear this as they won't be constantly bugged by phone calls from me.. haha...

Really thank God for work. This week is more of like an orientation... lotsa things to familarize myself with and to read up. Above all, still adapting to new relationships in the office. God is really faithful. I couldn't believe that all the job specification that I laid before Him has been answered. hmmm.... my silent whispers to Him and my desires... He know it all. For some of you who will know my struggle ever since after my JC, probably you could understand the extent of my gratitude to the Lord. It really takes God to bring us through a season of His moulding to develop character and to deepen our walk with Him. It's been a long time I felt so sure of where I am. You just know it when you hit the right place the right time and the right passion with the Lord. Like I mention earlier on... I am entering into a new season... A chapter has closed and the Lord is starting a new one now... He is probabaly working on another knot in my life.. haha

Well... I like wat I am doing now... Realise that I have a strong interest in art and design... It's a place where I can truly develop my creative wing. People there are nice chaps just that designers can be quite weird at time... and there are sooooo many design books to read! The only person that is more normal is Daniel whom I am working together with... Talking about designers, they are just different from the less right-brain pp around... They are a perculiar lot who perpetually lost their sense of direction besides having lost in their own world often and have a lesser interest in keeping time. They can be quite boring people at times... Maybe this explains why most of them either marry late or dun get married at all.. haha...That is probably wat makes them stand out! Maybe someday I will marry one! but... I can't stand bordeom... -_-