Advance Reunion Dinner

Sumptous??? That's not all.. Still have pizza and KFC to go with....Yep... I just had our advance reunion dinner yesterday with my mother's side aunties, uncles and cousins. It's pretty amusing to have such an early reunion dinner as new year's eve is like more than a week away. Well, my grandmother will be away in Malaysia during new year's eve, so that explains why. So new year's eve would be another one with my father's side extended relatives. Kind of enjoy the feeling of having the whole family gathering together. It's not so rare with my mother's extended family cos we are very close and would often meet but with my father's side, it will be like once a year or slightly more if there are special occasions.

We finally accomplished our mission yesterday... haha.. we had a family photo taken with everyone present finally! Too bad i can't show it here cos the photo is taken with my uncle's camera... Why I used the word "finally" is because we have been making arrangements for months to have a proper family photo taken but seemingly things just din work out... It's finally done.. and it's like so long ago since all the cousins had a picture taken together. I'll be having another baby cousin added to the family in May. I'll be so much older than him!!!!!

My cousins, myself and brother with my grandmother

My family

Samantha and mingshun.. Guess wat? The aftermath of our reunion dinner is a game of monopoly. Had a good time with my two cousins and my aunties.... Hmm.. this time I wasn't the loser!

Lighthouse

Nice? I think it's fantastic. This is one of the most meaningful gift I have ever received. It's a christmas gift from a dear sista of mine who actually remembers a vision I ever share with her before. hmm.. if you are reading this.. wanna tell ya again that i am really very touched by your thoughtfulness and the effort you put in to put this thing together...

The first month of the year is coming to an end, another 11 more months to go. Was just telling Shujun that I am looking forward to the end of the year but not 1 Jan 2006. Haha... Wat an irony rite? Well, it's just the contradictory side of me.

wat dreamer says!

Tired. when will dreams become reality?
The path seems rockier;
The tunnel darker
Where fear and uncertainty grips
Where the reality of sin enfolds
Hide me, shield me
Longing to be enveloped in His love
Longing to find back the lost art
Where?

Get going

Get going.

Forgetting wat lies behind

One of the things that I have been truly blessed in year 2004 is my members. Over the past one year, I've truly grown to be rather attached to my members. I enjoy the times spent with some of them. God has used each of them in their unique ways to encourage me especially when I am down and out. Through the youth camp and the past one month, I've come to be so assured that I am valued by most of them... The little gestures of appreciation from them, the prayers that they smsed me and the thoughts from them really cheered me on. In some ways, i may have failed them, yet I am very blessed by the grace that they've shown towards me.

It's the grace of God that has led me through the ardous journey in 2004. It amazes me that the thought of giving up has never drove me to put a full stop in all that I had to face. It's not a bad year, though challenging.. haha.. it has create some impact in my life and changed certain perspectives. In the area of surrender, I've come to a place of learning to let go and yield to the sovereignty of God. Guess that is wat all those things that i've gotta walk through in 2004 has to teach me. I've learn to surrender pain to Him. It's painful to face pain and I've got to learn how to... In relationships, there is another changed perspective and I am learning initiative and doing away with passivity.

Think about 2005.... I'm pretty excited yet mixed with some fear element... I do not know wat to expect... well, I am looking forward to the end of the year with greater expectancy instead. Just want to know wat is all that He has prepared for me and His answer to my secret cry this year. I know that it will be a challenging year... The stars will be a constant reminder to me of His promises and i will lay hold on them.