Laying down Issac... that's what I've decided to do! The Lord spoke to me about my Issac. Well.. it's been a struggle to place him on the alter but somehow since last week when the Lord tugged at my heart that particular area of my life, I've began to find strength to surrender. Hmm.. Pastor Foo mention that when we lay down one Issac, there will be many Issacs God will bring into our lives. I was ministered by that cos God was just pointing His finger at that Issac. I've got to let go cos that thing or person belongs to God.
Been enjoying work.. just that pace is a bit slow at this moment for the start. Adjusting to the new lifestyle and changes... Haha.. I am beginning to talk in the office... out of my hole of deprivation!!!! Getting more comfortable with the guys in the office and really thank God for each one of them... They have really been taking good care of me on the accord that I am the youngest and new to the company. I've started tagging along with Daniel for appointments this week. He's been teaching me a lot of things and it's pretty fun working together with him. Was just asking him if I could do something more exciting next week... Well, it's great having to be able to look forward to work! It's a blessing from the Lord. I've got to realise and fulfil God's mission for me in this job. Shujun and myself was just saying that she's gonna impact the doctors and I will do likewise with the designers!
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Back
Breaking the silence.... I am back. It's a good thing that I really don't have much time to blog these days cos it shows that I am not bored! Some people will be happy to hear this as they won't be constantly bugged by phone calls from me.. haha...
Really thank God for work. This week is more of like an orientation... lotsa things to familarize myself with and to read up. Above all, still adapting to new relationships in the office. God is really faithful. I couldn't believe that all the job specification that I laid before Him has been answered. hmmm.... my silent whispers to Him and my desires... He know it all. For some of you who will know my struggle ever since after my JC, probably you could understand the extent of my gratitude to the Lord. It really takes God to bring us through a season of His moulding to develop character and to deepen our walk with Him. It's been a long time I felt so sure of where I am. You just know it when you hit the right place the right time and the right passion with the Lord. Like I mention earlier on... I am entering into a new season... A chapter has closed and the Lord is starting a new one now... He is probabaly working on another knot in my life.. haha
Well... I like wat I am doing now... Realise that I have a strong interest in art and design... It's a place where I can truly develop my creative wing. People there are nice chaps just that designers can be quite weird at time... and there are sooooo many design books to read! The only person that is more normal is Daniel whom I am working together with... Talking about designers, they are just different from the less right-brain pp around... They are a perculiar lot who perpetually lost their sense of direction besides having lost in their own world often and have a lesser interest in keeping time. They can be quite boring people at times... Maybe this explains why most of them either marry late or dun get married at all.. haha...That is probably wat makes them stand out! Maybe someday I will marry one! but... I can't stand bordeom... -_-
Really thank God for work. This week is more of like an orientation... lotsa things to familarize myself with and to read up. Above all, still adapting to new relationships in the office. God is really faithful. I couldn't believe that all the job specification that I laid before Him has been answered. hmmm.... my silent whispers to Him and my desires... He know it all. For some of you who will know my struggle ever since after my JC, probably you could understand the extent of my gratitude to the Lord. It really takes God to bring us through a season of His moulding to develop character and to deepen our walk with Him. It's been a long time I felt so sure of where I am. You just know it when you hit the right place the right time and the right passion with the Lord. Like I mention earlier on... I am entering into a new season... A chapter has closed and the Lord is starting a new one now... He is probabaly working on another knot in my life.. haha
Well... I like wat I am doing now... Realise that I have a strong interest in art and design... It's a place where I can truly develop my creative wing. People there are nice chaps just that designers can be quite weird at time... and there are sooooo many design books to read! The only person that is more normal is Daniel whom I am working together with... Talking about designers, they are just different from the less right-brain pp around... They are a perculiar lot who perpetually lost their sense of direction besides having lost in their own world often and have a lesser interest in keeping time. They can be quite boring people at times... Maybe this explains why most of them either marry late or dun get married at all.. haha...That is probably wat makes them stand out! Maybe someday I will marry one! but... I can't stand bordeom... -_-
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Into a new realm!
Stepping into a new realm of challenge! Work was good. I had lots of reading to do the past two days in the office... stuffs like company's profile, studio operation processes and notes on newsletters etc... but I am happy about it. I am doing something that I am passionate about. Felt such a surge of energy and passion in what I am doing. It's a very challenging environment to work in.
The first day of work was a bit intimidating for me as I am new to my working environment. I have to watch and observe the company culture and adapt to it. They are all a bunch of young people in the late twenties to thirties... so obviously I am the youngest. Things are getting better today... felt less tense up.
Just some thoughts about designers... seems that designers are fond of losing track of time. They have a tendency to be late! Well... most of my designer friends are like that.. The past two days, being new to the company and trying to play hard at keeping rules, I arrived at my work place punctually as I was told. In fact, both days I was earlier than required. Something not so usual. But guess wat? I was lock out of office cos the designers were all late, including my manager. They are not like five or ten min late that kind of thing but half an hour or more!!! Of course, they will at least be one who will arrive a bit earlier than the others. We'll see how things go.... but they do work till very late... another thing about them is that they often seem to be in a world of their own.... to add on, they have their perculiar style. Their hairstyle could distinctively tell you their profession... That's just my thoughts k... though it does carry some truth in it..
The first day of work was a bit intimidating for me as I am new to my working environment. I have to watch and observe the company culture and adapt to it. They are all a bunch of young people in the late twenties to thirties... so obviously I am the youngest. Things are getting better today... felt less tense up.
Just some thoughts about designers... seems that designers are fond of losing track of time. They have a tendency to be late! Well... most of my designer friends are like that.. The past two days, being new to the company and trying to play hard at keeping rules, I arrived at my work place punctually as I was told. In fact, both days I was earlier than required. Something not so usual. But guess wat? I was lock out of office cos the designers were all late, including my manager. They are not like five or ten min late that kind of thing but half an hour or more!!! Of course, they will at least be one who will arrive a bit earlier than the others. We'll see how things go.... but they do work till very late... another thing about them is that they often seem to be in a world of their own.... to add on, they have their perculiar style. Their hairstyle could distinctively tell you their profession... That's just my thoughts k... though it does carry some truth in it..
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Change
That was the topic of today's sermon. Ps Suzanne preached on change. Going through changes... some things will not be the same anymore.. learning to grasp with the art of adulthood. Really felt very assured by the Lord with regards to the job that I am starting this coming Monday. It's like you know it and that's it. I'm excited and looking forward to it.
Changes does bring fear as you don't know wat the end product of the process will be exactly. It takes faith to step out and explore the possibilities. Wat would it be three to five years down the road? I see the changes taking place determining wat things will be the next few years of my life. Wat would relationships be like then? Friendships? Calling of God? Life partner? It's kind of adventurous.. =)
Changes does bring fear as you don't know wat the end product of the process will be exactly. It takes faith to step out and explore the possibilities. Wat would it be three to five years down the road? I see the changes taking place determining wat things will be the next few years of my life. Wat would relationships be like then? Friendships? Calling of God? Life partner? It's kind of adventurous.. =)
Friday, April 01, 2005
Thoughts!
Blogging has gradually become my favourite past time since I started "work" last week. The usual thing today is that I am still bored. The only difference today as compared to the rest of the days is that there is pracitically NO WORK TO DO today. At least I get to work for an hour yesterday. I wonder if anyone can feel my frustration out there. Well, I made use of my time to talk to my members on the phone, check email and entertain Sham who was just as bored as me. I wonder how he has been surviving all these while in the office ALONE!
Just wondering how work will be like at my new work place next week. I will be working very near Shujun... hee.. lunchie partner in time to come. When I told Adrian on Tuesday how glad I was to get the job, his first reaction was..well... almost 40% of my joy attributes to the fact that I am near the shopping paradise in Singapore. Well.. that is just a minor percentage though... The fact of the matter is that God answers my prayer to wat I am looking for as a career. I love window shopping.. that's a good way to de-stres myself. I have not really been shopping since Chinese New Year cos I am moving into the economical stream more and more.. haha...so window shop would be fine.. Gonna spend my first pay meaningfully to bless those dear to my heart...yep especially my parents. Eh... I hear someone snoring.. Sham is sleeping!!! O man!!!
Just can't wait for Monday to start work..
By the way, Indonesia was hit by a major earthquake on Monday. It was Monday night while I was napping before I resume my marathon to finish my project presentation that the Lord impressed upon my heart that I need to pray. Following that, the next day, news of the quake came about. Similar urges from the Lord has happen during major world events like the 911 incident where I had dreams and felt that I need to pray after that. This time I felt it was an alert from the Lord to arise to my calling to pray.
Lord, I want to be found among those who have been found faithful to pray and to speak to the nations!
"I searched for a man among them who would build up the wall and stand in the gap before Me for the land, so that I would not destroy it; but I found no one." Ezekiel 22:30
Just wondering how work will be like at my new work place next week. I will be working very near Shujun... hee.. lunchie partner in time to come. When I told Adrian on Tuesday how glad I was to get the job, his first reaction was..well... almost 40% of my joy attributes to the fact that I am near the shopping paradise in Singapore. Well.. that is just a minor percentage though... The fact of the matter is that God answers my prayer to wat I am looking for as a career. I love window shopping.. that's a good way to de-stres myself. I have not really been shopping since Chinese New Year cos I am moving into the economical stream more and more.. haha...so window shop would be fine.. Gonna spend my first pay meaningfully to bless those dear to my heart...yep especially my parents. Eh... I hear someone snoring.. Sham is sleeping!!! O man!!!
Just can't wait for Monday to start work..
By the way, Indonesia was hit by a major earthquake on Monday. It was Monday night while I was napping before I resume my marathon to finish my project presentation that the Lord impressed upon my heart that I need to pray. Following that, the next day, news of the quake came about. Similar urges from the Lord has happen during major world events like the 911 incident where I had dreams and felt that I need to pray after that. This time I felt it was an alert from the Lord to arise to my calling to pray.
Lord, I want to be found among those who have been found faithful to pray and to speak to the nations!
"I searched for a man among them who would build up the wall and stand in the gap before Me for the land, so that I would not destroy it; but I found no one." Ezekiel 22:30
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Found!
Hey... went for the interview at the design firm yesterday and I got the job!!! Really thank God for this open door. I laid before the Lord the choices between the job at the design firm and the current one at the events company and told Him that if He wants me to stay where I am, then close the door to the one at the design firm. I was quite amaze that the manager make the swift decision after talking to me and reviewing my portfolio cos I was told by Daniel that the selection was "stringent". That's besides the point.... I am glad that I got the job appointment. My office will be at CHINATOWN! What a wonderful place to have your office location! Most importantly, I won't have to face irregular work hours on weekends and a non-challenging working life. I will be starting work on Monday, the first week of April. Just see God's faithfulness and favour in my job hunt. All the criteria and time frame I set before Him has been met. God is good!
Work as usual today is BORING!!!!! I was playing games during working hours with Sham cos there was literally nothing to do. I am sick of this kind of working environment!
Work as usual today is BORING!!!!! I was playing games during working hours with Sham cos there was literally nothing to do. I am sick of this kind of working environment!
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Right Job?!
Results seems accurate...
Strategic and Creative
As a Strategic type, you want to be able to express yourself and your ideas through work. Sure there's a time and place for rules and procedures, but when a good thought strikes you, you don't want it to be boxed into one way of thinking. You're willing to go outside the rules if there's a chance that the risk will reap big rewards.
You are stronger than most when it comes to generating ideas. And because of this, it might sometimes feel easier to take on all aspects of a job yourself instead of wasting time explaining it to someone else who might not "get it" like you do. But because you have so many ideas and are willing to take on so much, you might find that you sometimes have trouble finishing every project you start.
Your diplomacy and adaptability make you a valuable asset. But your need to feel invested in a company that allows you to express your original ways of thinking will ultimately impact how happy you are in the workplace.
Dreamer says...
The Lord ministers His strength to me on sunday during evening service. He stirs the troubled waters within me that I was fearful to face. Couldn't explain how it was having to confront your "Goliath" alone.... seems to be an unquenchable thirst for emotional strength. Pastor prayed for me and the Lord used him to speak to me. While I felt that I am not good enough for Him, He assures me that He accepts me for who I am and that He sees the sincerity of the heart. People will watch my life as I walk with Him and He is raising me up. Like I mention about the quest for His approval, there was a yearning to be accepted by Him.
Really feel like a small girl... well, for that I mean the innocence of the young. No more the complications from voice of the world. Rather, it's a deliberate choice of simplicity over complexity. The thought of drawing near to the father's love warms one's heart. I'm learning to appreciate His love and grace more and treasures relationships more. As the Lord adds value to my life, there is a growing desire to do the same to others around me.
It's a new season of walk with Him. Discovering the true value of who I am, wat relationships meant, the meaning and purpose of His call. I've learnt this.... the true value and beauty of a woman lies in knowing wat pleases her maker and living it out!
Really feel like a small girl... well, for that I mean the innocence of the young. No more the complications from voice of the world. Rather, it's a deliberate choice of simplicity over complexity. The thought of drawing near to the father's love warms one's heart. I'm learning to appreciate His love and grace more and treasures relationships more. As the Lord adds value to my life, there is a growing desire to do the same to others around me.
It's a new season of walk with Him. Discovering the true value of who I am, wat relationships meant, the meaning and purpose of His call. I've learnt this.... the true value and beauty of a woman lies in knowing wat pleases her maker and living it out!
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Friday, March 25, 2005
Boredom - Part 2
I am in my office now.. blogging... Yesh... I am bored! But thank God I brought my book to read today. Sham is equally bored as I can see but he seems pretty fine with it. Actually I am quite tired cos I din really sleep the past two nights. I was preparing for my project presentation last night til 4 plus in the morning. Manage to finish one post card design which I am pretty satisfied with... Gotta send for printing once I am done with my other master pieces. Thinking if I should go for design courses to further enhance my skills in this aspect but plans to further my studies will be more concretise once I settled down in my first permenant job.
Just got another appointment with a design company for an interview. This time the designation is sales designer. Well.... the Lord knows wat I need and desire.... The bible says if we ask God for a fish, He would not give us snake and if we ask Him for bread, He would not give us stone. Seems that I am seeing God's favour upon my life throughout the whole process of job hunting. Besides boredom, I am doing pretty fine in my work so far... the amazing thing is that doors begin to open ever since I started work on Monday. Getting closer to the ideal job that I long for.... well... I've got to prepare my portfolio for both the interviews next week... and be very sure that I give my best go... The rest is in His hands!
It's Good Friday tomorrow. It's amazing how the Lord brough back someone whom I have not been in contact for a while. She called me up last sat, seemingly needing some help. I've yet to get hold of her and have a good talk with this sister. Pray that she will be able to make it for the easter rally.
Just got another appointment with a design company for an interview. This time the designation is sales designer. Well.... the Lord knows wat I need and desire.... The bible says if we ask God for a fish, He would not give us snake and if we ask Him for bread, He would not give us stone. Seems that I am seeing God's favour upon my life throughout the whole process of job hunting. Besides boredom, I am doing pretty fine in my work so far... the amazing thing is that doors begin to open ever since I started work on Monday. Getting closer to the ideal job that I long for.... well... I've got to prepare my portfolio for both the interviews next week... and be very sure that I give my best go... The rest is in His hands!
It's Good Friday tomorrow. It's amazing how the Lord brough back someone whom I have not been in contact for a while. She called me up last sat, seemingly needing some help. I've yet to get hold of her and have a good talk with this sister. Pray that she will be able to make it for the easter rally.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Boredom
Work was boring.. really boring. I was paid the past three days to sit around the office doing not much work. You know how frustrating it can be when you seem to be like a white elephant in the company.. Arrg... My colleague has to bear my nonsense and grumbling at the amount of work I was given. When I ask him wat can I do, his reply is always " just sit loh", "wait... your work load will increase". Haha... but I just can't stand it!!! I need something more challenging!!! Or maybe I am still adjusting to my work and gotta need more time. It will be a good exposure for me but whether it will be my rice bowl for the next two years, I seem pretty hesitant about it for it. My fingers are itching for classified ads!
I am looking forward to my interview at this design company next tuesday and I pray that I can get the job. I just spoke to the guy, Daniel, who arrange the interview for me. I was pretty bold enough to ask him my chance of getting the job. Well.. he din revealed much, just said that they are very stringent in their selection. Since I manage to convince them to meet me for an interview through my cover letter and design work that I emailed them, I shouldn't be that bad afterall. Though they are not hiring me as a graphics designer, they still require candidates to have a certain level of interest in this field and a creative flair. Who knows I may become a graphics designer somehowday :)
A plus point about this job is that it is at Chinatown. One reason being it is much more accessible for me than Ubi and another being I really loved Chinatown. If not for the food, it will be the rich heritage the place holds. It is near to the major shopping malls in Singapore!
Well the Lord has His best and He will make things beautiful in His time!
I am looking forward to my interview at this design company next tuesday and I pray that I can get the job. I just spoke to the guy, Daniel, who arrange the interview for me. I was pretty bold enough to ask him my chance of getting the job. Well.. he din revealed much, just said that they are very stringent in their selection. Since I manage to convince them to meet me for an interview through my cover letter and design work that I emailed them, I shouldn't be that bad afterall. Though they are not hiring me as a graphics designer, they still require candidates to have a certain level of interest in this field and a creative flair. Who knows I may become a graphics designer somehowday :)
A plus point about this job is that it is at Chinatown. One reason being it is much more accessible for me than Ubi and another being I really loved Chinatown. If not for the food, it will be the rich heritage the place holds. It is near to the major shopping malls in Singapore!
Well the Lord has His best and He will make things beautiful in His time!
Complications
Relationships is a marvellous things yet complicated in its own sense. It can bring strength and encouragement and it can bring pain and agony as well. Why can't people just handle relationships maturely? Talk things out should there be anything instead of keeping quiet... mindful of the other party... Probably it's fear, or you dun mean anything to that person or it's just a proven fact that man is self-centred. The fact that it disturbs me to some extent shows where the person stands in my heart... how much I desire to change the status quo of things to see things work better.... how can I be a strength? Wat went wrong? Seems that we lack understanding of each other. Another lesson of maturity to learn!
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Started work
I've started work today. Job designation: Events executive. Well, sounds kind of professional in one sense but executives are just a better way of addressing oneself. I've kind of wanting to work in the creative and communications industry ever since I started sending out resumes to my propective employers since the beginning of the month. My ideal is to work in a magazine firm, advertising firm and creative/design companies. I've tried . Some called me up for interview and others I suppose, thought I am better suited for other jobs. This job was offered to me about a week ago and I really took time to think through before I accepted it. Events was part of my interest but would I make it my career?
And guess wat?? On my first day of work today, a design company called me up for interview for a position that I wrote in last week. It's a business executive position that gives me opportunities to unleash my creative streak. That means... I won't give it a miss! I will go for it.
By the way, kaijun... I just can't get the taggy up to the desired position.... Not that I am a IT nerd but I really tried... Someone pls help!
And guess wat?? On my first day of work today, a design company called me up for interview for a position that I wrote in last week. It's a business executive position that gives me opportunities to unleash my creative streak. That means... I won't give it a miss! I will go for it.
By the way, kaijun... I just can't get the taggy up to the desired position.... Not that I am a IT nerd but I really tried... Someone pls help!
Thursday, March 17, 2005
The God of shuhui!
Shuhui, be strong.... be bold and courageous in times of challenges and great adversities for the Lord your God is with you! He will be the God of Abraham, the God of Jacob and the God of Shuhui.
The palm of Your hands
Protects me from the sorching sun
The strength of Your arms
Carries me through
Your perfect love cast out all fears
Your assurance hold my world
Therefore I will not be shaken
I will stand, be still and know that
You are God!
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Green days ahead, Jeremy
This is our beloved east 2. I am blessed by the effort each one of you puts in to show your appreciation to Jeremy. Yes.. Jeremy will be going to the land of greenery this very friday. I really appreciate this brother who have been such a strength to me in the zone. I am blessed by his positivity and unduanted spirit. That's the spirit to keep up!
Sunday, March 06, 2005
The quest for His approval
A recent victory over a struggle reminds me of the mission trip to Philippines I went a few years ago. What challenges me most is not anything spiritual but the MOUNTAINS 2 philipines! It was like so tough having to hike through the mountain under the hot sun and with constant fear of whether you will make it alive. After each mountain conquest, you will feel such a sense of victory and achievement that you've made it somehow and the comfort that comes with knowing that God has been there. More than those, it is the approval you felt from God that you have made it through trusting in Him.
Recently I din't climb any physical mountain but I had a spiritual mountain to conquer. Somewhere last week, I just felt so defeated to go on. It's equivalent to climbing the mountain in philippines where it seems neverending and stretches you to the core of your bones. You can't give up cos you are already half way through but going on is going to be real tough. Either ways, you wonder if you can ever make it. Any way, when I finally conquer that mountain, I was brought back to the times in philippines where I felt great that i have made it through the challenge. God is reminding me of His faithfulness. I feel like a small girl, innocently happy over the fact that you daddy is pleased that you've done him something he can be proud of! the quest for God's approval...
Recently I din't climb any physical mountain but I had a spiritual mountain to conquer. Somewhere last week, I just felt so defeated to go on. It's equivalent to climbing the mountain in philippines where it seems neverending and stretches you to the core of your bones. You can't give up cos you are already half way through but going on is going to be real tough. Either ways, you wonder if you can ever make it. Any way, when I finally conquer that mountain, I was brought back to the times in philippines where I felt great that i have made it through the challenge. God is reminding me of His faithfulness. I feel like a small girl, innocently happy over the fact that you daddy is pleased that you've done him something he can be proud of! the quest for God's approval...
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